….was that it is going to be even harder than I thought to be jobless. Not that I thought it was going to be easy. I didn’t. Not at all. But I didn’t expect to be as discouraged as I was so quickly. And it was just one day. What is it going to be like after a week? A month? Yikes!
Although the walk I took at 8pm did help. Probably I should start my day with a walk, and perhaps end it with a walk as well. What could it hurt, right? Nothing, except it might wear my shoes out more quickly.
It’s getting out of the apartment that is important. I spent the whole day inside, never getting out, when I could have, to clean my car and/or get the oil changed. I was far too inclined to stay inside, which was not good.
The thing I need to get better at is structuring my day. I’m not used to filling my time. With my job my time is always filled, there is always work to do, and I’ve been doing it for so long that I don’t really need to think about it. Perhaps that is a sign that it’s a good thing that I’m leaving it (although technically, I’m not leaving it, it’s leaving me, which feels like an unfortunate trend in my life these days — sigh).
Well, in any case I’m going to be without a job soon and there’s nothing to be done about it but find a new one. But that’s no problem right because this the United States of America where anyone who works hard and plays by the rules can get a job and get ahead and be productive and prosperous and happy. Right?….Right?