I might as well face it. There is no way I’m going to be sleeping my mornings away once I’m jobless. I just can’t sleep in. I was up at 6:30am this morning (Sunday). What else to do but get going?
- Applied for three more jobs this morning
- Go the oil changed in my car
- Went grocery shopping
- Did laundry
Then I spent the rest of the day lounging around at the folk’s place. And why not — AC is better, food is better…
Also, though, I didn’t really have much else to do. Nothing I could think of any way. It’s funny, when I don’t have my daughter I feel a bit lost sometimes, unmotivated, just kind of blah. It’s like in that episode of the new FX show “Louie” starring Louis C.K. (a great show btw, which is currently in it’s second season) when Louis drops his daughters off at his ex-wife’s place. All of sudden it’s as if the life drains out of him. He doesn’t know what to do with himself? He gorges on ice cream, gets suddenly interested in working out but quickly drops it. Man, do I know that feeling.
The other thing is I think in part I am re-acclimating myself to being back at my parents’ place, since that is where I am likely to end up. What with my job ending August 9th and my lease up Sep. 30th. I’m trying to be optimistic but I just don’t see myself finding a new job before then. And sure, I could probably try to swing it while just on unemployment. It would be tight but I could do it. But why not save money instead, keep from going into debt. I mean, I have the safety net. Why not use it. Sure, it’s not ideal but it’s a better situation than a lot of people find themselves in these days, that is for sure. Besides, I think my aging parents could use my help. Or maybe I’m just rationalizing. Well, whatever works right.